Wondering if my life has value, surely its not worth its weight in gold.

For when all my assets are added, the cruel truth will unfold.

My whole world consisted of four walls, and the people that lived within.

Seems some building blocks had faults, and the walls were too thin.

My world was based upon friendship. One I though was twenty three years strong.

But obviously I was mistaken, because my world did not last long.

I thought this was forever when I said I do.

But how was I to know my world was put together with spit and carpenters glue?

I reflect upon the days when we used to sit and talk

Seems now a days our only chat is about how fast and far I will walk.

I leave behind me all of my world, my soul, my sanity and my worth.

Only my body is left of me, set free to look for a new life on this earth.

Inside a little girl screams and cries, hoping to be heard.

She runs as fast as she can, still no one hears a word.

Terrified, lost, confused, and ashamed to take one more breath,

I franticly search for something of me that I have left.

I thank you; the soul mate that I thought was forever mine.

For my two wonderful sons you have given me during our time.

These two precious sons of mine are my reason for trying to cope.

For them I need to find me and a life full of love and hope.

Now I need to pull me together and pick me off the ground.

To learn to love a second mate and make it work this time around.

This is something I had never planned for.  It took me by surprise.

I thought I would be heard and a saved marriage would be my prize.

It seems like I have fallen hard.  Now I need to get tough.

I need to pick me up and dust me off.  I have fallen far enough!

Still shaken from my fall, I dont know where to start.

I need to find me and mend my broken heart.

Time heals all.  I am thankful this is true.

I pray this time passes quickly and I no longer feel blue.

Life takes many turns,  sometimes the reasons are hard to find.

This last turn mine took will let me leave my past behind.

Life is forever changing as we grow each day.

I look forward to a brighter future coming my way.